Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound that saved a wretch like me.
I was a young college girl with regret as deep as the ocean and stains from almost all sins possible. My life was filled with brokenness, drunkenness, sexual immorality, greed, but the greatest sin was a life surrendered to Christ Jesus.
You see, I was baptized at the age of 9, and I very well thought I believed in God. But as my life continued for the following years, it was clear that I had chosen the lesser things in life. My heart was not changed by the gospel. I lived a double life, one that went to church but remained unsurrendered and unchanged.
Thankfully, the Lord convicted me through His Word. Like 1 Corinthians 6:9-11
Or do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulters, nor men who practice homosexuality, nor theives, nor the greedy, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God. And such were some of you. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.
So these verses showed me that the believers ONCE lived in sin but were NO longer. This was not me.
Or another verse James 2:19
You believe that there is one God. Good! Even the demons believe and yet they shudder.
I said I believed in God, but I had no fear for Him. It seemed as if I was worse off than the demons.
But rich in mercy, by His amazing grace, He saved a wretch like me. Undeserving. Filthy and Dirty. He made me a new creation through faith.
If anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away, behold the new has come. 2 Corinthians 5:17
I was recently baptized (again), but for the first true time. It was an act of obedience that was ten years too late, but rich in mercy is He. I wanted to hang on to the idea that I was a Christian in my teenage years. However, I had believed a saying that is quite common in the South "I went wayward for some time." The truth was that my heart was not changed by the gospel. There was no "waywardness" about it; it was blatant rebellion against a Holy and Just God.
Baptism does not 'save' you. Only Christ can. It is a proclamation that as a believer, you have been buried with Jesus, forgiven of sins, and raised with Christ, just as He was raised from the dead, to walk in the newness of life.
Soli Deo Gloria.